im tired.. very tired... im lost in the world.. i dunnoe where do i stand.. i dunnoe who am i now.. and neither do i no wat to do.. im jus so tired, and so lost.. i feel like crying.. feel like jus being a innocent little child.. knowing nothing about the world yet.. haix..
for 1 moment last night, i really wished he was there.. right beside mi.. the sky full of stars.. wishing that he was there to watch it with mi.. but these are jus my wishes and hopes.. they'll nvr come true... dreams are always opposite of reality.. well.. things are always one sided for mi i guess..
everyday i make myself tired.. so i could get to sleep at night.. im dont wanna think of these things.. i trying hard.. really.. im trying very hard to shake off these complicated feelings.. and complicated things..
so many WHYs, so many HOWs, so many WHATs kept deep in my heart.. these questions.. are kept.. but now.. there are too many of them.. filling up every space in my heart.. only i can protect myself.. and im gonna protect myself well.. it has been too hurting for mi to take it.. really..
