sickked.. =(

eww.. im sick again.. as usual.. down with flu... sobsobs.. but now feeling better after a nap le.. jus now in school.. it was sooooo torturous.. keep on "ah choo".. lol.. then everytime i sneeze will got ppl copy mi.. all copy cat!! lol..

zul, surath, wx, kk badbad.. all luff at mi when i sneeze.. like my sneezing sound so funny like that..lol.. yay.. fridae.. going out!! wow.. more and more ppl are going le wors.. mm.. i think got like 10 ppl now? lol.. but got more guys then gals nor.. confirm de gals onli got pris yt and mi lor.. 3 gals.. lol.. guys got alot!!! lol.. at first call 1 guy onli.. ask kk go only.. but scare he only guy and dunnoe pris 2 other guy fren, so ask other guys.. lol.. got ask fume.. but he's not going bax.. then got ask kel..lol.. kel should be going bax.. he say he sick ok le then go.. but he dun look like he sick lor today.. i more sick.. lol.. then yuanhe.. lol.. cannot leave out the main character rite? lol.. kidddin..but anyway... i forgot to ask wx.. lol.. tml mus rmb to ask.. hahax..

tml got mock test....!! yucks.. hope by tml my flu ok lo0r.. if not later i sick no mood do... lol..

out~

lol..i was out da whole day.. woots.. hahax.. woke up at 1030 today.. and was a disaster!! cos.. i was meeting pris at 11am.. lol.. so quickily wash up ate a little and vacuum the floor.. lol.. and nice timing.. its 1055.. lol.. 5 mins left.. and i walk to pris house.. hahax..

wowww.. pris house is.. damn QUIET... lol..and her room is nice nor.. can see outside.. and is very windy.. hahax.. she got her own tv... soooo good.. lol.. anyway.. i went there not to play.. but to work.. did my homework.. lol..but.. nvr finish.. cos do until sian already.. hahax..

aft.. is her turn to come my house.. lol.. i came back and change.. and take wallet.. hahax.. well.. for the first time.. i wore the "jacket" they bought for mi.. hahax.. my bdae present.. ok lahx.. i wore that and went around bugis with pris nor.. lol.. friday goin out with her.. celebrate her bdae.. hahax..

then now i feel like escaping!!! urgh.. come home only then so noisy.. if i know i dun come back so early le lahx... so noisyyy!!! scold scold scold... hmpf!

ewwwwwwwwwwwwww

YUCKSSS!!!!! i hate staying at home looking after that 2 bratsss!!! argh!! they sucks.. eww.. feel like giving them a few tight slaps each!! blah!!

im jus so piss off.. and im gonna whine.. i dun careee..!! argh.. stupid belle ang.. she's such a bitch! yucks! always giving mi problems.. damn her man.. stupid attitude problem..arghhh.. i wanna complain to my dad and be a evil sister.. let her get all the ATTENTION she longed for.. and she'll be like a puppy.. unable to rebel and retort.. hmpf!! teaching her is jus so difficult.. im now being strict towards her becos i dun wan her to go the wrong path like mi and be a stupid gangster at that young age.. she'll regret de lor.. blahhh!!!

second thing.. some idiots just cant understand english... fuck! seriously.. wat more can i do before it can get through their bloody pea brains?! if resorting to violence will help.. i think i will jus go and give them a few slaps.. arghhh!!!!!!!! I HATE U! U IDIOT!!!! SUCKER!!

SHUDDUP AND LEAVE MI ALONE FOR TODAY.. I NEED THE PEACE AND QUIETNESS TO THINK..

zzz

lol.. wat can i say..? im a lazy lazy piig.. lol.. okays.. didnt study for my test.. lol.. intended to wake up at 3am to study.. but was too tired cos i slept at 12mn so i set another hr for mi to sleep.. lol.. woke up at 4.. but im lazy.. so i lied on my bed, did some stretching..and fell asleep again.. lol.. at 5 am i was awakened by my grandma who was sleep talking and.. while sleep talking she did some actions too then keep on bang my bed.. lol.. this time a really wake up lor.. walked to the door.. but after some thinking.. i still prefered to sleep.. lol.. cos there's only 1 and 1/2 hrs left before my mom will actually wake mi.. and in 1 and 1/2 hrs time its impossible for mi to know 7 chapters of science.. lol..

well.. as a result of my laziness.. im gonna flung my test.. lol.. esp physics.. urgh.. lol.. today got back my hist mock.. yay!! i failed.. -_-||.. lol.. it was expected.. lol.. cos once again.. i nvr study!!!! lol.. crazy already.. have been busy playing.. playing too much.. hahax.. fume and aaron PASS.. woo.. lol.. it was actualy expected lah... cos they got study.. lol.. and i think they will pass chem test also de lor.. cos they got go and look for uncle tam.. lol.. well it's good news lor.. hahax.. but anyway.. i like aaron's art.. he can draw damn well lahx.. so envious.. lol.. he can draw gothic things so easily lor.. not like mii... lol.. trying so hard sia.. lol..

hahax.. my coursework left abit only.. so happy.. hahax..my clown scared miss ng jus now.. she say very scary.. lol.. dunnoe lahx.. then she isolate my art.. hahax..

tml playing badminton!!! yay.. and going for band.. haahx.. weee~! yuanwei's gonna perform on national day!!! yay.. then kk and wx wil go also.. hahax.. :)

dotx..

well.. its wednesday already.. and im still slacking.. lol.. how to reach my aim.. sot le lahx..lol..
was actually aiming to finish my second piece by this sat.. lol.. meaning i have 2 more days.. lol.. actually 1 dae to be specific.. lol... cos.. there's onli tml!!! fri got to play badminton with xm aft school to help her lose weight.. well.. its little lame.. lol.. aft playing.. gonna go for band bax? lol.. pei yuanwei go again..lol.. this time i can stay till seven!! cos no more lu guang shen lin le.. hahx.. can stay untill late late.. hahax.. today also cannot paint.. becos..

tml got 2 tests.. physics and chemistry.. lol.. looks like everyone is well prepared except for mi.. lol.. xm was full of confidence saying "tml's chem test i take full marks let u see".. lol..so confident sia.. and kk was saying its so easy lor.. waaaa.. all so hardworking.. lol.. i hvn even touch the book.. lol.. 7 chapters of science to memorise and understand.. lol.. how much time do i haf left? lol.. mm.. 6 hrs from 12mn.. lol.. cos aft this im gonna sleep as usual.. then watch final episode of lu guang shen lin.. then do hmwk(if there is).. until 9 im gonna watch tv again.. lol.. then i'll let the tv rest for 1/2 hr.. and continue to watch tv until 12 mn.. lol.. so.. lol... i haf onli 6 hrs left if im not going to sleep.. lol.. if im gonna sleep.. then.. i also dunnoe how long left.. lol.. depends on wat time i wake up? lol.. heck care le lahx.. anyway also not included in prelims.. lol..

bad attitude.. lol..

zZz

blah blah blah... didnt really know wat to type.. so i think i'll jus briefly type wat happen yesterday and today? lol..

well.. yesterday's onli interesting lesson was PE.. lol.. had fun playing badminton with kian kok jia jun and yi xiang.. lol.. hvn been playing badminton for such a long long period of time.. hahax.. i think the last time i played was when i was being drag to play with my sister.. lol.. but anyway.. its jus fun lor.. lol.. kel1 VS 4 gals sia.. but he still win.. lol.. pro? or izzit the gals are lousy? lol.. abit of both i think.. lol..

for today.. interesting event? mm.. i dun think so.. today is jus a normal day with mock exam cancelled.. lol.. but anyway.. i finally found my water bottle.. lol.. eeyore!! lol.. i tot i lost it.. hahax... but i jus merely forgotten about it on friday when i went for band.. i left it in the band room.. lol.. but nvm.. its back now.. hahax.. well.. im a pig.. slept for 4hrs jus now... so tired.. lol.. now im gonna do work le.. byex..

crap

wateva.. today is a good and bad day bax.. a little mixture of each.. lol.. from the start of the day the first bad news is i've gotta stay at home with my 2 little brat sisters.. well.. but surprisingly my dad came home early.. and of cos.. there was more peace.. lol. i took that time to do my maths.. hahax..

aft that.. everyone went out.. except for mi.. lol.. i own the house for like 2 hrs? yeah.. i had my time of quietness... lol.. and i managed to complete my work before they were back... lol.. am i really crazy? lol.. my mom said i was becos i lock up all the windows and locks.. lol.. its jus becos that wat i always do.. lol.. but wateva it doesnt really matters..

well.. aft my parents plus my 2 younger sis were back.. we went for dinner at red hill? the food was ok onli lor.. but it costed 85 bucks lor.. so damn ex... eat sakae or fiesta also no so ex.. lol.. but aft we went to mt faber.. look at the scenery? lol.. but anyway.. during dinner time my mom talk to mi about the nafa thing... it's most prob my elder sis who told my mom about my plan.. haix..
wat to do next? before i say talk about wat i want to do.. they started blabbering on and on.. saying i've gotta make sacrifices for my future.. for god sake.. its not that im not thinking.. but they know i hate that kind of life.. my dad KNOWS wat i wan.. he knows i love my own freedom.. and i weigh alot of my wants on actitvites.. its not about taking interior design as my course or not.. its about activities, fun and freedom.. i wont get either of that in nafa..

how am i supposed to tok to them about that.. it seems that i jus cant get through them.. many times i try toking to them already.. and this is not the first time they are urging mi to go nafa.. wat to do next.. haix.. think i'll jus haf to take it one step at a time..

nthhhh

today ish jus a smooth day for me.. lol.. except considering the facts that i haf to take care of my sisters while my mom isnt around.. lol..

cat tried to cheat mi today on her piano lor.. lol.. although im not very good in piano.. i'm still aware of grade1 stuffs lo.. lol.. anyway.. today was fine with art.. hahax.. ii start on with another new piece and i think its basically my feelings for music? hahax.. wateva..

well.. aaron has a blog.. lol.. and i read his blog thru fume's.. lol.. wat to say.. as usual.. the cheeky tone with profound usage of words.. lol.. but there's something that i definitely learnt from his entry.. lol.. "a person who likes to seek symphathy by whining and neighing about her supposedly 'miserable' life,as if she/he has an unsurmountable number of problems.These insignificant rants are so cliche,so misused,it has become only become a cry for unnecessary,plethoric attention.Innocuous as it may be,it is to me uncomprehensible to why such trivial problems can cause one to spiral towards the depths of 'misery'.I,myself,would dare say i have been through more than any,or most at age 16.I have experienced a loss of someone so close to my heart,slogging through most of my years labelled as a failure,unrepentant hooligan,looked down upon,trod upon,ostracized and cast out.So what makes you think that insignificant matters of the heart of whom you clearly do not deserve and your plain clumsiness is something to fret about?"

yeah of cos.. it's refering to mi obviously.. lol.. i admit i've been bothered by so stupid stuffs.. lol.. but now im not.. im freed from those thoughts.. but one thing for sure is.. both fume and aaron did not know about my past.. heartbreaking processes happen to them at 16.. at the age which i am now.. but for mi? in primary school.. i whine in my blog becos i dun whine to my frens nor my family membes.. i try not to let wat fume and aaron think, "sympathise" by ppl to happen to mi.. because i wont know if its true.. i had been out of my own defence once.. i was led out of my own strong self denfence by zhenyu.. well.. being out of defence is really good..i feel lighter.. but recently i was jus thrown back to my defence shell.. by who? 1, a person who was once my best fren, xingmei and the other FUME.. the one who said in his blog about ppl being lame typing sad entries and trying to win others' sympathy.. and the only other guy who i can tok very openly about my feelings to other than my gorgor and zhenyu in the past.. so.. of cos.. if fume and aaron ever come and read this entry.. they might go back to their blog and type.. dun blame others for ur own fault.. but.. if i was at fault.. then tell mi wat haf i done wrong.. i dun think i am that hard to tok to.. as long as u can give mi a reasonable EXPLAINATION.. not reason nor excuse.. i can accept it.. however.. if neither a explaination is given nor did u tried toking to mi.. and u jus did some gay actions by ignoring mi.. Im sooo sorry.. i cant accept that fact.. because that is totally ridiculous.. being condemn without any proper reason.. that sux ok..? PLUS.. if ppl could jus stop doing things behind my back.. i can swear... i will NEVER whine in my blog..

so.. i hope ppl can get their facts right before they try to shoot their mouth off with their stupid and hurtful comments in any ways.. this refers to everyone... not only fume or aaron.. well.. i said my piece.. i gave my explaination.. and wat's next? we'll see..

lol..

well.. i haf got a cursed week.. lol.. every single day of this week im getting injured.. even today!! yucks.. so cursed nor... lol..

but anyway.. today was a funn day.. hahax.. art was quite relaxing.. then chemistry lesson was ermx.. boring? lol.. cos we watch some video.. lol.. that adil hor.. sot already.. watch video then say its the gal is mi.. siao.. i also nvr cry until like in the video b4 lor.. somemore is cry until so pathetic in school becos of a guy.. lol.. i will NEVER do that.. cos i dun think guys deserves it.. lol.. maybe for some exception.. who i haf one in mind.. lol..

then during maths.. mi and pris tok about her bdae outing siia.. lol.. well.. i think in our class got yilian mi kian kok and yuanhe going to celebrate with her? lol.. and of cos our dear crazie yitian.. lol.. i think yitian bf going worrs.. and bringing some guy fren along? lol.. pris also invited 2 of her pri school guy fren.. lol.. suddenly so many guys going.. lol.. everyone's confirm going except for xingmei.. she say see her mood.. dotts.. lol.. plus during maths lesson miss chong tok to hayuni.. mm.. i think is something about some prank calls? anyway.. those ppl are idiotic.. mm.. heard from yuanhe.. those childish ppl use kel name and his name to say stupid things.. lol... anyway.. hayuni say she recognised the voice... mm.. by looking at the way she whisper to miss chong.. i guess its some clowns in our class who did it.. lol.. and IF it was done by ppl in the class.. the answer is already out... it's jus so obvious.. lol..

aft maths i waited for yuanwei to go band tgt.. lol... so i went to art room and did part of my art.. lol.. still ok lor.. aft go band with yuanwei then i saw kiankok and wenxian.. lol.. so fun.. they go back also.. anyway.. when i go and wash mouthpiece/reed with yuanwei that time.. i kena caught by miss chong siia.. i was praying so hard that she dun see mii.. but like no effect.. she call mi lor.. argh.. then i she ask mi if i noe where was fume and aaron ( they were made to stay back and to work ).. lol.. then i say outside staff room.. lol.. on the way she tok to mi siia.. say.. " jacqueline.. u ah.. mus help them ok.. mus try ur best to help them.. " then i was like.. it not i dun wan to help them lor.. that childish duo dun wan mi to teach them de lor.. esp FUME.. so wat can i do? force them mehx.. lol.. so i heckk...

band was soooooooooooooooooo fun.. lol.. play some nice songs plus the national anthem? lol.. it sounds wrong lor the national anthem.. hahax.. anyway there was alumni.. hahax.. saw zhenyu worrs.. soo long nvr see him liaox.. change alot physically bax.. loll.. now more broadbuild le worss.. lol.. and he change to contacts.. mm.. but personally i think he look better in spects lor.. cos he got baby face.. loll.. yuanwei ask mi if got regret break with zy anot.. lol.. my answer is NO.. lol.. why? becos happy memories are enough.. hahax.. plus.. im not going to think of BGR stuffs le.. cos its too complicated.. hahax.. im good gal now.. hahx..

aft band... came home of cos.. walk by gombak with yuanwei and nelson... lol.. on the way saw kel on the 945 bus.. lol.. dunnoe why i always see him on bus de nor.. lol.. esp.. when i go for band.. lol.. weirdd.. hahax..then took the train with nelson.. hahax.. its so embarrassing taking my coursework around when i didnt wrap it up.. ( didnt haf the time aft band) lol.. then when i reach cck.. there was a little boy who walked infront of mi.. lol.. he suddenly turn back and look.. lol.. his expression was like "OMG"and "o.O" with his big watery eyes staring at mi.. lol.. while walking he kept turning back.. lol.. then i very paiseh siiia.. esp when he call mummy.. lol.. he ask his mom to see lor.. -_-||.. feeling so embarrassed, i pick up my speed and walk infront instead.. lol..

well.. b4 blogging i went to view fume's blog.. lol.. and his entry was toking about ppl complaining in their blog how sad they are and its lame for ppl to blog about them feeling depressed.. lol.. my sixth sense tells mi that he was refering to mi.. lol.. well.. ppl haf different views about others entries.. esp those so call sad entries.. ppl like Fume will think it's jus to get ppl's attention and wan others to sympathise them.. lol.. wateva lo.. its ppl's freedom to blog wat they like.. and of cos.. i think blogging is a way to smoothen one's emotion and to relief stress.. so.. blogging is actually good, irregardless of wat the intention the typer has.. lol..

but anyway.. its a long entry today.. hahax.. but in any ways im glad i had nvr been alone all this while.. although facing many difficulties in the recent weeks.. hahax.. all thanks to my frens.. ppl around mi.. my crazie classmates.. and of cos my dear gorgor and miss ng.. hahax.. :)

deadd

lol.. im soo dead.. hist mock today can die lahx.. seq i nvr do nor.. part b 13 marks i only write 4-5 five lines of crap? lol.. but i also predicted i wil fail.. cos i nvr study!!! lol.. was actually supposed to study in the morning de... but then.. aft waking up at 4.. and all the washing up.. i open my book and slept in my study room.. lol.. was really too tired already cos i didnt really get any sleep during the night.. i was supposed to be asleep by 12.. however.. i went in to the room and end up chatting with my sis who was having some probs with the bf..lol.. therefore.. i became her advisor.. lol..

her situation was like mi and my ex in the past.. lol.. so i can gib her advice.. lol.. and i think it work lor.. cos her bf come my house pei her lor.. lol... somemore.. my grandma was sick.. she kept coughing.. and cough almost right in my face.. cos my bed was aligned to my head facing hers.. so i didnt sleep.. and most imptly.. my sis fone was vibrating every 5 mins.. llol.. how to rest.. lol.. as a result.. i conclude that its not my fault not studying!!! lol..

hahax.. i think fume and aaron was cast by some goody goody boi spell? lol.. out of a sudden they became so damn hardworking.. lol.. they studiied for the mock test nor!!!!!!!!!! its like so hard to believe.. lol.. when i saw aaron's scripts i almost fainted lor.. he wrote soooooooo much.. omg.. at least 5 pieces of foolscape paper lor.. lol.. i onli used 3 pieces lo.. 1 for 4 qns of SBQ and 1 for 1 part of the SEQ.. the other for another part of the SEQ which consists of onli 5 lines of crap at most? lol.. plus.. they did not skip physics extra lesson and neither were they late.. lol.. i was late for 1/2 hr.. lol.. although late for 1/2 hr.. i dun think i miss out alot nor.. lol.. heck care anyway.. so tired.. lol.. LAstly.. THEY went for extra art lesson..^(oO)^'|.. wat a miracle.. and they did work there lor.. lol... is sounds and look so unbelievable that fume and aaron will be soo hardworking.. lol.. miss ng says they will soon get back to square 1 and slack.. lol.. well.. we've got to put some faith in them.. lol.. and hope they will cont to be as hardworking .. hahax..

today got injured again.. waseh.. so suay siia.. injured for the wholeweek lor.. sot liaox.. now i think the side effects of getting headed is acting up.. my rib cage there very pain sia.. and my right shoulder.. cannot move ahh!!! only can move my hand from below the elbow joint.. damn..

dotss

nth to blog about today except that i keep on injuring myself unintentionally.. so stupid.. cut my knee against the cupboard at home and hit my right wrist on the wooden desk in art room...lol.. so now i haf injuries all over.. ouch!!

lol.. art lesson was surprising and relieving? cos someone finally start on the canvas.. hope that kind of spirit will cont.. then there can be hope that our class can haf 100% passes!! lol..

someone is sick already.. lol.. so sad... mm.. hope he'll take good care.. lol.. and will get well soon bax.. lol.

siannx

today is jus another boring daee.. first period got test liaox.. somemore is surprise test lor.. siao.. lol.. is chinese test.. mm... i think should be able to pass? gt totally no mood to do the test lor.. cos alot inference qns.. so boring.. lol..

plus.. my back was still aching like hell.. esp my neckk.. like breaking siia.. paiin!! lol.. today i think onli recess physics and poa nice nor.. lol.. cos mi and pris like siao... lol.. keep on toking about her bdae the things.. lol.. yitian and pris sot le.. lol.. they came out with super crazy idea.. lol.. its not suitable to say it out.. lol.. cos its a plan.. lol.. yilian and xm hear the plan already protest like hell.. lol.. esp xm..lol.. i won protest.. cos i wil jus sit back relax and watch them going ahead with their plan.. hahax.. its not about sabotaging lor.. haahax..

mm.. aft schooll.. got mock test again lor.. lol.. think i gonna fail that paper.. lol.. reason? because the weather was humid and it made mi moodless... lol.. and i cant think.. feel like sleeping more.. lol.. somemore.. my hand injured.. at the shoulder there.. lol.. think this is due to carelessness? always walk without looking and banging onto things.. lol... now got no ppl protect liaox.. so cannot so careless. hahax.. last time always gt ppl protect until used to anyhow bang.. lol.. siaox gurll ..lol..

injured

argh.. injured myself during pe today.. we played dog and bone.. then unknown of the reason.. i was suddenly headed by surath.. diaox.. then his head so hard lor... direct hit on my rib cage.. pain sia.. and i went landing on the floor on my back.. mm.. think its due to that that my back is aching like hell.. sad.. lol..

doc says my backbone not good worrs.. so and not injure backbone.. or consequences would be terrible.. lol.. but i think that impact of the hit is not strong to injure mi to that extent lahx.. lol.. but still it painful!! ouch.. lol.. i think im a bad patient.. hahax.. cos i dun listen to the doc.. lol.. no sleeping late, no carrying of heavy things, mus exercise and do sports like swimming.. lol.. all i nvr do.. lol.. which results to mi being sick.. lol.. crazy liaox..

lol.. if let my mom no i sick and having flu again she sure nag at mi again.. hahax.. my eyes so watery now... all due to the fluuuu.. yucks... lol..

well.. today suddenly very musical.. lol.. musical as in listening to classicals.. lol.. maybe becos b4 chinese o levels listening compre listen to too many pieces? lol.. back at home started to hum classicals and even now.. listening to my fav pachebel's cannon in d.. lol..

think i stop here for today bax.. lol.. cos i feel so accomplished today.. accomplished for my personal things.. hahax.. =) and of cos.. i did hmwk lor.. lol..

lol..

okays.. jus reach home from doing work and strolling at orchard.. while strolling memories came alive.. lol.. mm.. i think i was smiling to myself at certain places.. cos they were filled with sweet memories.. hahax..

although things now have changed.. mm.. didnt really regret telling him.. hahax.. cos even aft telling him my stand we're still happy... lol.. jus that out of a sudden things werent meant to be anymore.. so become like now.. lol.. wateva lahx.. ive already think through le.. have been quite childish and stupid to think things will always last foreva like in fairy tales.. lol so now i no.. fairy tales are all LIES.. lol.. there are no princess no prince and no knight.. lol.. yep.. heard from his bud.. he's now famous for his magic tricks.. lol.. and many wanna exchange.. mm... good to hear that.. although his studies is back to square one..lol.. well.. my thinking is as long as he's happy.. then let him do it.. lol.. cos im gonna let go.. =)

Wee~ feeling better already.. although sometimes i still feel think about it.. hahax.. but now my focus is on studies already.. have been slacking too much.. hahax.. think tues may be going back for band bax.. cos promised tricia to go back and gib her bdae present.. hahax.. mus settle dinner myself.. so sad.. hahax.. but nvm.. i can skip one meal then.. XP

shop

shop around today.. went to taka bought some art stuffs.. mm.. but i think tha fixative got prob.. lol.. nvm.. tml then i go and change.. mm.. bought another two tubes of paint.. lol..

jus now may follow mi go for art.. lol.. then the ppl there all miss her worrs.. hahx.. cos she so long nr go liaox.. hahax.. anyway.. we paint merlion.. lol.. nice..although many ppl say mine look ugly and weird.. the teacher say nice lor.. lol.. i also think nice.. hahax..

mm.. today very good mood.. lol.. hahax.. now my second canvas looks a little gothic.. but its supposed to be very gothic.. lol.. may say very gothic liaox.. but i think not lo.. lol.. wateva lo.. diff taste.. lol.. now i so depressed painting gothic things should be easy.. lol.. im gonna train myself to paint more gothic and scary stuffs.. cannot always paint those scenery and happy happy pics.. lol.. so boring.. lol.. mus be all rounder.. hahax.. colours decribes one's mood... lol..

stress out?

well.. miss ng says im too stressed out already.. maybe bax.. i feel so tired... i dun feel like holding onto anything anymore.. im really tired.. screws and bolds of mine are already out.. i can break down anytime anywhere.. jus now when talking to miss ng i suddenly cry for nth.. haix.. miss ng also nvr scold mi then i suddenly cry sia.. haix..

but i do feel better aft crying...now i still feel like crying.. alot alot.. how i wish i can be blind and deaf for 1 dae.. so that i cannot see wat i dun wanna see and cant hear anything that i dun wanna hear.. so that i cannot know how ppl speak ill of mi behind my back when i didnt even do anything.. haix..

why cant ppl jus understand that im jus doing my job? WHY?? as band assistant major i was being hated.. as maths rep ppl gib mi attitude.. wat the fuck... why..?? many times it wasnt my choice.. i wasnt the wan who say i wan to be assistant band major and i wasnt the one who say i wan to be maths rep.. wat the hell is wrong with u ppl.. why mus u all always bully mi.. i ignore doesnt means i dun haf any feelings lor.. im really tired...

im jus a normal human like everyone else lor.. i haf feelings.. i may be immuned to all these treatment since pri sch but it doesnt means ppl can jus hurt mi anyhow they like.. im really stressed out.. stressed out over my studies my art my family and some personal things.. haix... i really hate this..

i feel like jus wrapping myself up on the bed with my blanket and start crying like a baby.. but i cant...

siianx..

mm.. nth to update actually jus came back home... fri going watch movie with pris they all... tml got hist mock and i still slacking.. totally dun haf the mood to do work..

mm.. he pon tan school today... that wat i heard from his best bud.. fine lor.. dun reply my msg.. mm.. i feel so idiotic.. haix.. dun care lahx.. he like to do wat behave in wat manner i also cannot care.. cos i dunnoe wat is he thinking.. so nvm.. i shall jus shut up and leave him alone to rot.. and concentrate on my studies..

did alot of art work today.. and tml im gonna stay back and do more.. i cant work at home.. so have to do in school.. if not 22/8/06 mus hand in coursework already..lol.. on gerald's bdae!! scare cannot complete.. esp when still got observation drawings all that.. to fill 8 pieces of A2 size boards.. siian..

tired..

wee.. i deco de.. lol.. i dunnoe wat pose to put.. lol.. anyhow pose.. XP
lol.. i sot liaox.. this wan also deco by yilianx..
LOL.. act cute sia mi.. lol.. deco by yilian..
mi and yilian.. taken at orchard yesterday.. lol.. i deco de!!XD

well.. im so tired.. didnt sleep much this few daes.. plus i was sick.. siian.. anyway.. today lesson was ok.. although there was 4 periods of maths.. mm.. my maths deproved le.. sian.. but nvm.. i am gonna work hard.. hahax.. sundae going study again bax i think.. this time hope pris dun late min ps again.. lol.. if not very sian sia.. hahax.. upload some pics.. the neoprint i took with yl yest..

mm.. today pris they all have oral.. dunnoe how did they do.. hahax.. but i heard from bx.. it was very difficult.. esp the conversation.. the passage was actually no kick to him.. lol..their conversation topic was sth to do with teenagers wanting too much branded stuffs, electronic devices all that.. mainly all the quality services...and wanting them.. lol..

germany VS portugal

lol.. its a goal and germany wins..! lol.. well.. the match between germany and portugal was GREAT.. lol..

bastian from germany strikes.. and there it goes.. peep* its a GOAL!!! woots.. bastian is so cute.. lol.. bastian strikes again.. it nearly went in.. WAIT.. the ball had accidentally hit petit on his leg.. and its another GOAL for germany!! lol.. it was quite sad for petit.. he was supposed to save that ball.. but in the end had caused it to be a goal.. hahax.. aft a few mins bastian strikes again.. its a goal... lol.. 3 strikes sia.. so good.. hahax.. although 1 of the goals was with help of petit from portugal.. hahax.. Portugal tries to strike.. Figo from portugal strikes.. Kahn blocks his move.. the ball went off.. and another player(er.. i forget the name) headed.. it's a GOAL!! for portugal.. lol..

had been watch soccer like mad lately and that cos mi to sleep late wake up early and not having enuff sleep.. hahax.. now im sick.. diaox.. always sick de.. siianx sia.. hahax.. jus now went doing hmwk with kk and yilian... pris cant go last min cos mother dun let.. lol.. then left 3 of us.. mm. i did very little work.. but i sneeze alot.. crazy already.. lol... aft we last to do liaox.. then mi and yl went to town.. hahax.. we walked around heerens and took neoprints.. hahax.. quite nice lahx.. haahx.. aft i came home le. hahax.. so sleepy.. later wanna watch pirates!! and the final match for world cup... italy VS france.. lol..

miracle..

LOL.. my house was pack with ppl today.. MIRACLE.. those 2 heartless and irresponsible aunt came and visited with their whole family.. lol.. why did i say they were heartless and irresponsible? becos of their MOUTH..

my 3rd aunt.. came to visit on the day b4 as my grandma was feeling very unwell.. and in the morning when my grandma was feeling so unwell my mother had to bring her to the doc for check up.. initially was to bring her to hospital.. but wat did that 2 aunts of mine said? " NO NID LAHX.. go the nearby clinice see can already.. " wtf man.. when my mother told mi this i was so damn furious.. how can they say thaT? my grandma was THEIR mom.. not my mom's.. they should be even more worried.. damn it sia.. upon leaving my house that day.. my aunt told my neighbour " also nth.. they so anxious for wat.. " if they wasnt my aunt i think i might haf slapped them.. so heartless.. esp that 2 aunt were my grandma's darling daughter.. shit man.. they dun deserved to be treated so well by my grandma.. it's their responsibility to come and visit my grandma at least once a week lor.. so pissed off by them..

haix.. that's why now i dun like them.. and i dun wanna tok to them.. but its a good thing that my other aunt came.. hahax.. so long nvr see yong ming le.. hahax.. now he come then we all become crazy.. hahax.. play 3/4 rounds of mahjong with yong ming and his bro.. lol.. so fun.. hahax..

yay.. i finish my exhibition pieces.. hahax.. now i can concentrate on my coursework liaox.. ahahx.. good good.. hahax.. later gonna wake up watch soccer..lol.. yong ming said germany wil win.. mm.. i dunnoe lehx.. my 6th sense tell mi portugal wil win lehx.. lol.. heck lahx.. i also nvr bet.. lol.. so it dun affect mi.. hahax.. jus now keng yi nvr go.. lol.. cannot tell him about my oral.. hahax.. so sad.. dunnoe where he go.. got activities? lol..

jus now in the morning went back to cckps for open house.. hahax.. and the 1st classroom i went in i saw my earlier pri days teacher.. hahahax.. and she still recognised mi!!! she rmb my name!! hahaax.. so long already lor.. hahax.. ii tot onli my pri sch chinese teacher will rmb my name.. hahax.. cos i create so much trouble for her.. hahax.. i saw many many of my teachers.. hahax.. so glad.. but nvr see mr tan and my chinese teacher.. hahax.. nvm lor.. teacher's day then i go back again.. hehe..

overall today was fun and great.. haahax.. today play then tml i mus do hmwk liaox.. hahax.. tml going to do hmwk with pris they all.. hahax.. aft that maybe i wanna go orchard... see if pris they all wanna go anot lor.. if they going to accompany mi then i go... cos i wanna get some acrylic... running out of some colours ..

half day sch

well.. by reading the title.. we'll noe that school was onli half day yesterday.. lessons were actually ok for mi.. but im quite stress.. duno whyx..

haix.. art lesson fume and aaron rot again lor.. as usual.. aft getting reprimanded on wed they still heck care.. wateva manx... its not like still begining of year.. haix... dunnoe is i over stress or wat.. seeing them fooling around like that makes mi piss..

looking at my course work.. it shows the effort i put in.. i think it looks presentable bax.. but i felt like smashing it on the ground.. oh no.. lol.. too depress? have been sleeping late and waking up early.. lol.. its irritating.. haix.. and i think now i drink alot beer.. bad sign sia.. lol.. now also drinking so that i can sleep better.. dun wan later go in to the room then think about stuffs again..

later going to do my exhibition stuff.. hahax.. so happy.. there so nice place for artist.. very quiet.. and everyone around u is like an expert.. can ask for advice.. hahax.. i think thats the onli place which i can contain myself well and not be bothered about things around mi.. hahax.. and that the place im looking for to do my o's coursework.. i nid a PEACEFUL and QUIET place to work.. and think properly.. its jus too noisy at home.. argh.. i have difficulty working at home.. no space for mi to do and the atmosphere is TOTALLY wrong.. siian lor.. if anyone haf any good recommendation mus tell mi.. lol.. as long as i can complete my coursework on time.. hahax..

chinese o's oral

LOL.. today my turn to haf oral.. omg.. i think quite easy lahx.. lol.. but i was damn nervous.. hahax.. but hardy joanne kaiyun kel and yuanhe made the atmosphere better.. hahax.. i wasnt as stress and scared.. cos they made mi luff alot.. haahx.. hardy was damn scared lo.. he keep on say his heart beat very fast.. hahax..

well.. my passage was EASY.. no difficult words at all.. all the words i no how to read.. =)) heheex.. then conversation.. i think my point not enough lehx.. cos i like say very little things? lol.. the teacher ask mi so many qns.. i think 3 or 4 qns lor.. but aft my turn.. it was joanne... lol.. she say the examiner also ask her alot qns.. 4 qns.. lol.. our topic was about the relation with maid and the owner.. lol.. sth like the maid abuse thingy.. mm.. i nvr talk about abuse at all.. i keep on talk on good things.. lol.. die.. maybe wil deduct marks? lol.. but who cares.. over is over.. hahax..

now is time to mug.. mug for mock exams, mug for prelims and lastly mug for o's.. hahax.. scare scare.. prelims already nearing.. i still nvr revise.. lol.. crazie gal sleeping all the time.. hahax.. nvm.. tml sch end at 1135.. yay.. hahax.. then i can come home and be pig.. ahahax..

jus now went to check my eyesight.. mm.. got abit changes lahx.. but then.. i still get to change my spect.. lol.. instead of oval frames, i got a half framed spect... lol.. new spect is rectangle de.. mm.. new changes.. hahax.. i nvr had a rect shape spect b4.. hahax.. quite excited.. hahax.. i wanna see if im weird in it.. hahax.. jus now my mother say wanna buy those trendy thick framed spect for mi.. i almost faint..i look like BAPOK.. lol..sooo weird and ugly.. hahax.. yucks.. i hate that kind of spect.. lol..

i so guai.. got 2 post today.. hahax.. =)

LOL~

hahax.. im crazy lately.. hahax.. i can dun eat for hours.. lol.. yesterday i ate my breakfast at 430am.. lol.. until... 7pm then i eat my dinner... lol.. crazy already.. somemore i dun feel tired when i actually woke up at 3am in the morning to watch world cup.. lol..

today onli sleep a few hours.. lol.. i think onli sleep for 4hrs.. hahax.. wee~ FRANCE wiins the match today...!! 1 - 0.. lol.. portugal had many chances of scoring, but in the end.. they either missed or its a totally off shot.. sad... lol.. anyway france will VS italy.. lol.. who to support? of cos i would support FRANCE! hahax... as for germany and portugal match.. i think i gonna changed to support portugal? lol.. cos i think they have more team work than germany.. lol..

well.. worldcup is coming to an end.. hahax.. good.. then i can concentrate on studies.. hahax. if not i wil be crazy over supporting the teams.. hahax..today got chinese o's oral.. mm.. got abit scare.. becos i scare later i there stammering.. lol... then wil be like so idiotic.. hahax.. mm.. aft oral gonna go and check my eyesight.. think the degrees of my spect has increased again.. so crazy... sometimes can see sometimes cannot.. weird.. lol..

tml half day off!! yay.. mm.. i wondered wat am i gonna do.. lol.. no more matches.. so dun nid sleep.. hahax.. think i;ll most probably be doing my coursework? hahax.. now proceeding to my second piece.. mm.. yestrday jus change my idea.. then miss ng say its acceptable.. so i gonna draw my new idea instead.. hahax.. sat going do my exhibition piece.. hahax.. hope can finish by this sat.. hahax.. sunday dunno going out anot lehx.. yesterday kiankok suddenly keep ask mi are we going to study.. lol.. weird.. nvr study tgt for so long now suddenly ask this question.. lol.. but im fine with it lor.. as long as i get back home by 630pm on sun.. lol.. cos i wanna watch tv.. got pirates of the carribean.. lol..

gaigaii

lol.. back from school.. today's school.. was ok lahx.. jus that had tests and exams.. hahax.. so siian.. well.. the ratio analysis test.. i think i gonna do badly.. hahax.. becos i didnt study for the test.. hahax.. then maths mock exam was no better.. hahax.. although i did my best to attempt every question.. but i think most of them was incorrect.. hahax.. nvm.. its jus mock exam.. hahax.. well.. tml there's another mock exam.. poa.. hahax.. poa should be ok de lar.. hahax.. cos i did better in poa than in maths..hahax..

well. yesterday.. didnt go to yilian house as she went to johor.. hahax.. so mi and pris went to je study tgt.. not really study actually.. we jus went to do our hmwk.. and aft doing she went through some of the poa stuffs and i slacked.. hahax.. aft that.. we went to cosway..! hahax.. actually nth much to be excited about.. cos its quite boring there.. hahax.. upon reaching.. we went in search for FOOD.. lol.. i didnt have my lunch.. hahax.. and was dead hungry.. hahax.. as usual.. going out with pris means jap food.. lol.. so we ate yoshinoya.. yeah.. hahax.. it was really filing.. hahax.. i was so full after eating.. hahax.. we sat in the shop and crapped for awhile.. hahax..

wee~ we got many many same thinking and ideas.. hahax.. so glad.. hahax.. we're gonna work tgt near our house here.. and go and buy high heels.. lol.. high platforms for mi i guess.. heels are not for mi.. hahax.. then we're also gonna get a cap.. hahax.. wee... so nicee.. hahax.. i guess we're addicted to trying the hats.. hahax.. so funn! hahax.. we also went to try the shoes.. wow.. really very high lehx.. around 15 cm wors.. scary.. hahax.. we saw surath there.. hahax.. wearing green.. hahx.. he loves the school so much.. lol. kiddin..aft that.. we came back to lot wan, searching for black ring file.. for poa.. mm.. but anyway.... it ran out of stock.. so sad.. lol.. so mi and pris went to walk around again.. lol.. this time we went to sasa.. lol.. a shop which i nvr go b4.. make up shop. lol.. well.. we went in and played with the testers.. lol.. aft i came home.. lol..

staying at home for not more than 30 mins i was out again.. lol. this time to imm.. went out for dinner with my mother they all and went to shop around.. lol.. i think we didnt buy anything except things for the new car.. hahax.. wateva.. i enjoyed more in the afternoon.. hahax..

wee! today got soccer match.. hahax.. later i wanna watch.. jus now go downstairs buy beer.. and tibits.. hehe.. later can eat and drink.. =)).. i now go sleep first.. too tired already.. hahax.. feel like dying liao.. jus now stupid kel dun wan help mi carry the 5 year series books.. then very heavy..teacher say the TWO maths rep nor.. he also nor.. but he so non gentleman de.. hai mi now hand ruan ruan.. no strength.. hahax..

*ps gorgor.. dun angry with those boliao ppl lahx.. if ur angry means u have gotten into the person's trap.. so dun bother about them ok.. u have to trust urself.. i think dasao would be sad if u are sad.. so jus dun bother about them okays although i didnt see wat those idiot wrote... but i think i can guess.. =)) smilex okies? dun make dasao and mi worry.. hahax..

wee~

LOL.. i met my dasao!! lol.. it was yesterday.. lol.. but i was too tired to blog.. hahax.. well.. wa to say about my dasao lehx? hahax.. 1 thing for sure i mus say.. she's too SKINNY.. really very skinny sia.. lol.. *Ps gorgor have u been ill treating her?* lol.. kiddin.. hahax.. anyway.. dasao and gorgor very compatiable.. hahax.. they very sweet de worrs.. hahax.. see already also will envy.. hahax.. =)) gorgor.. dun let dasao slip through ur fingers.. she's good gal.. hahax.. yups.. then still got my dasao buddy's bf.. lol.. he's name is.. zhijian? if i am not wrong.. lol..cos i didnt really catch his name when my gorgor is introducing him.. lol.. cos he tok very fast.. lol..that guy was quite nice.. lol.. very helpful guy? lol.. he help mi take things.. lol.. and can see he is a caring guy.. cos he very worried about his dear.. hahax.. anyway.. * gorgor.. dun tease mi about him again ok next time.. cos it's really a big big mistake.. plus i dun wanna think about it le.. hahax..*

lol.. when i reach home from seeing dasao.. i think its 5 plus 6 bax.. lol.. then i slacked awhile.. hahax.. aft that had dinner while watching tv.. hahax.. mm.. and i continue watching tv until 1 am.. lol.. crazy.. well.. i ate alot of tibits.. my house de tibits almost let mi finish while i was watching the vcd.. lol.. and i also drank alot.. drank alot of ice cream soda and red wine.. lol.. red wine is my dad let mi drink de worrs.. lol.. miracle.. i drink so much also nvr pengx.. lol.. so tired..
hahax.. last night i also cry.. when i tok to my sista.. cos i cannot take it anymore.. mm.. then we tok nor.. talk about alot of things.. then talk until i cry.. lol.. but crying is good.. i felt better after crying.. hahax.. im craziie.... hahax..

clown

wee~ im back from 3hrs of art.. hahax.. mm.. is my painting skills so slow?? lol.. alot ppl say i paint very slow.. lol.. nvm.. jus now saw keng yi.. lol.. he so funny.. see mi then ask mi take "o" chinese oral already anot.. lol.. of cos hvn lahx.. hahax.. he first day.. lol.. then i very bad.. i tease him and say.. nvm later.. mine also thursday.. but jus that is one wk after urs.. lol.. then he went crazy.. lol.. well.. he said his conversation was difficult.. lol.. but the passage was easy.. hahax.. nvm la.. thurs my turn.. hahax..

anyway... i brought back my clown painting.. mm.. it's not scary at all.. lol.. last nite i stay up late to watch the park.. omg.. the clowns inside the show were damn scary.. lol.. think i gonna try paint until that kind of creepy and scary look.. but it gonna take mi very long time.. hahax.. the show wasnt scary... but i was scared.. becos of the clown.. lol.. somemore i alone in the livin room.. lol.. scary!! hahax..

yay.. my mother borrowed vcd back.. hahax..i gonna finish it up within this 3 daes.. got 50 chapters i think.. hahax.. but i watch vcd very fast.. hahax. so should be no prob.. hahax.. mm.. monday maybe going to yilian house.. study and play.. lol.. mm. tml.. dunnno wanna go out anot lehx.. lol.. no event.. mm.. see if got ppl ask mi go gaigai anot nor.. lol.. cos i wanna go orchard there buy some art stuffs.. hahax..

*ps gorgor.. i will keep matters of heart aside first.. now my studies come first... so dun nid worry bout mi.. =)