today ish jus a smooth day for me.. lol.. except considering the facts that i haf to take care of my sisters while my mom isnt around.. lol..
cat tried to cheat mi today on her piano lor.. lol.. although im not very good in piano.. i'm still aware of grade1 stuffs lo.. lol.. anyway.. today was fine with art.. hahax.. ii start on with another new piece and i think its basically my feelings for music? hahax.. wateva..
well.. aaron has a blog.. lol.. and i read his blog thru fume's.. lol.. wat to say.. as usual.. the cheeky tone with profound usage of words.. lol.. but there's something that i definitely learnt from his entry.. lol..
"a person who likes to seek symphathy by whining and neighing about her supposedly 'miserable' life,as if she/he has an unsurmountable number of problems.These insignificant rants are so cliche,so misused,it has become only become a cry for unnecessary,plethoric attention.Innocuous as it may be,it is to me uncomprehensible to why such trivial problems can cause one to spiral towards the depths of 'misery'.I,myself,would dare say i have been through more than any,or most at age 16.I have experienced a loss of someone so close to my heart,slogging through most of my years labelled as a failure,unrepentant hooligan,looked down upon,trod upon,ostracized and cast out.So what makes you think that insignificant matters of the heart of whom you clearly do not deserve and your plain clumsiness is something to fret about?"
yeah of cos.. it's refering to mi obviously.. lol.. i admit i've been bothered by so stupid stuffs.. lol.. but now im not.. im freed from those thoughts.. but one thing for sure is.. both fume and aaron did not know about my past.. heartbreaking processes happen to them at 16.. at the age which i am now.. but for mi? in primary school.. i whine in my blog becos i dun whine to my frens nor my family membes.. i try not to let wat fume and aaron think, "sympathise" by ppl to happen to mi.. because i wont know if its true.. i had been out of my own defence once.. i was led out of my own strong self denfence by zhenyu.. well.. being out of defence is really good..i feel lighter.. but recently i was jus thrown back to my defence shell.. by who? 1, a person who was once my best fren, xingmei and the other FUME.. the one who said in his blog about ppl being lame typing sad entries and trying to win others' sympathy.. and the only other guy who i can tok very openly about my feelings to other than my gorgor and zhenyu in the past.. so.. of cos.. if fume and aaron ever come and read this entry.. they might go back to their blog and type.. dun blame others for ur own fault.. but.. if i was at fault.. then tell mi wat haf i done wrong.. i dun think i am that hard to tok to.. as long as u can give mi a reasonable EXPLAINATION.. not reason nor excuse.. i can accept it.. however.. if neither a explaination is given nor did u tried toking to mi.. and u jus did some gay actions by ignoring mi.. Im sooo sorry.. i cant accept that fact.. because that is totally ridiculous.. being condemn without any proper reason.. that sux ok..? PLUS.. if ppl could jus stop doing things behind my back.. i can swear... i will NEVER whine in my blog..
so.. i hope ppl can get their facts right before they try to shoot their mouth off with their stupid and hurtful comments in any ways.. this refers to everyone... not only fume or aaron.. well.. i said my piece.. i gave my explaination.. and wat's next? we'll see..
