well.. miss ng says im too stressed out already.. maybe bax.. i feel so tired... i dun feel like holding onto anything anymore.. im really tired.. screws and bolds of mine are already out.. i can break down anytime anywhere.. jus now when talking to miss ng i suddenly cry for nth.. haix.. miss ng also nvr scold mi then i suddenly cry sia.. haix..
but i do feel better aft crying...now i still feel like crying.. alot alot.. how i wish i can be blind and deaf for 1 dae.. so that i cannot see wat i dun wanna see and cant hear anything that i dun wanna hear.. so that i cannot know how ppl speak ill of mi behind my back when i didnt even do anything.. haix..
why cant ppl jus understand that im jus doing my job? WHY?? as band assistant major i was being hated.. as maths rep ppl gib mi attitude.. wat the fuck... why..?? many times it wasnt my choice.. i wasnt the wan who say i wan to be assistant band major and i wasnt the one who say i wan to be maths rep.. wat the hell is wrong with u ppl.. why mus u all always bully mi.. i ignore doesnt means i dun haf any feelings lor.. im really tired...
im jus a normal human like everyone else lor.. i haf feelings.. i may be immuned to all these treatment since pri sch but it doesnt means ppl can jus hurt mi anyhow they like.. im really stressed out.. stressed out over my studies my art my family and some personal things.. haix... i really hate this..
i feel like jus wrapping myself up on the bed with my blanket and start crying like a baby.. but i cant...
