hais.. so sians.. what life about man?
life's getting quite boring.. i dare to say.. i've gt no life.. hahas.. im living as if im a robot.. having the same old routine daily.. hahas.. and now im sickk.. craps.. having flu sia.. hhahas.. faster sickk.. then mus get well b4 chalet.. hahas..
hahas.. im boredd.. very very boredd..
mm.. recently thinking bout loads of stuffs.. hais.. bout human relations, work, and my life.. hahaas... some may think i eat too much then nth to do.. think so much for wat.. lols.. but happenings around mi makes mi realise how much more schemeing the world has become.. eversince pri sch.. i've seen the world as schemeing and of cos.. i tried to keep myself in my own world.. but that's not a solution.. ppl are becoming more and more sly and cunning dae by dae..its really hard to know what the actual thinking of everyone.. even friends can stabb u at the back without u knowing.. and act innocent in front of u.. hais..
okaes.. im thinking of quitting my current job.. and get another part time job near my house.. maybe at lot wan or sth.. or maybe get a job near school.. hais.. my mom hopes that i can cont working while studying so that i can pay for my own allowance.. and she can DEDUCT my allowance to reduce her expenses.. mm.. its not that im not willing okaes.. i haf the same thinking of working and studying at the same time.. but.. deduct my allowance?? mm.. abit unreasonable bax.. however.. i've got no choice but to accept that fact rite? okaes.. wat im going to type now might be very selfish..
if without my 2 youngger sisters.. maybe the burden on my dad wont be as huge, my mom can go get a part time job, both my elder sis and i can get wat i wan very easily.. like all other ppl.. and my whole family can go out for gatherings easily and overseas like 2 or 3 yrs once? things wont be like now.. having to worry about both my elder sis and my sch fees.. i wont need to wait for 11yrs to go overseas once.. and my parents wont nid to worry bout medical fees of my youngest sis.. okaes..enuff of my selfish talk.. kkaes.. i recently found out that i've lost contact with quite a number of frens.. but of cos.. i've also know a few friends thru work.. my life evloves around work, sleep, eat and computer onli.. frens and family are quite neglected.. looking at my frens from msia caring about their family members so much.. i haf gt the sudden feeling that im so isolated.. mm.. the feeling its like theres not much love in my life.. love as in family love and love between frens.. i feel that i hvn been giving enuff care and concern bout my family members.. ppl ask mi which sch did my sis chose for her uni..? i jus stare at them blankly as if they were speaking to mi in an alien language and said " i dunno".. hais.. too busy with work? lame excuse..and while i was walking home todae.. i saw grandma going to my workplace to buy stuffs.. so i accompanied her.. and i realise that ITS BEEN AGES since the last time i follow/bring my grandma out or to buy stuffs.. okaes.. im so so so guilty.. as for frens and my junior tricia... IM SORRY~! so sorry for neglecting u guys.. i'll make up to u guys by going out with u guys and attending band pract okaes? well.. stop here i guess.. enuff of whining ( if this is considerred as whining to some) and blogging.. nitex~! 