okaes.. here to update my blog again.. looks abit insane.. cos its early in the morning at 430am.. lols.. okaes. but im already awake for 1hr 30 mins.. =))
okaes.. ytd was fun~ At k box, mi and anne tok and sang loads.. hahas.. okaes.. i got abit emo aft singing too much sad songs.. lols.. some MV really sad lars.. then sang some songs twice.. lols.. then aft the emo part.. i got high again.. lols.. aft singing " jing wu men " i got super high and when singing "chao xi huan ni" , i started jumping on the seats.. AGAIN~! lols.. everytime i go there also jump.. hahas.. too high~! aft that.. 6 came out of k box.. cos they nid the room.. ZzZ.. hvn high enuff.. wanted to play arcade.. but PUBLIC HOLIDAY~! alot ppl.. so sians lors. walked around for awhile then bought some stuffs.. DBSK~~! hahas.. cool okaes.. i gt the calendar.. hahas.. HERO damn shuai can.. hahas.. >.< .. mm.. aft that, DINNER TIME~! hahas... dear came to find mi, then followed by anne's cousin.. hahas.. then while both anne and mi were waiting for the " VIP(s)" to come.. we were there ZI LIAN-ING.. lols.. took foto~! haha.. ehs... think i upload the foto at friendster better.. hahas.. then ate long john silver.. hahas.. as usuall.. combo 1 with additional fries~! haha.. yums... i was sitting in the middle of both my dears.. then in the end..
KENA BOMB~! sadds.. half of the dinner time kena bombed lehs.. hahas.. so kelians.. LOLS~!
mm.. aft dinner, started to walk around again.. went to popular.. gt assessments.. and MY TECHNICAL PENS ARE STILL OUT OF STOCK~! ZzzZ.. very sians lars.. cant do hmwk without the pens lors.. then later get nagged by my mother agains.. sian lars.. mm... didnt get to go home with dear.. cos my mama came to fetch mi~! sads.. in car..
NAGGING AGAINS~! hais.. go every where also get nagg sia.. pengx lors.. somemore my mom got mi quite pissed.. IM TIRED OKAES~~~~~~! i dun feel like working.. but she wanted mi to work, so tat they can cut cost and save money for my 2 younger sis... For this, im fine... its not that i dun haf that kind of thinking.. but asking mi to work so much, on all the daes which i dun haf sch, its jus too much.. even on the daes when i haf sch i haf to teach tuition.. so its like, basically, whenever im supposed to be free, im gotta work.. im kinda stressed okaes.. by looking happy doesnt means im not tired not stressed.. LOOKS CAN BE FAKE~! onli those who really understand mi well knows when im really happy and when im faking.. i dunno wats happening around mi.. when catching up with frens.. i feel that i neglected them so much.. i feel bad about it.. but, like anne and almost every fren of mine say.. " u always so busy, very hard to ask u out" haix.. really, sometimes i feel like jus telling my mother i wanna move out of the house.. and rent a house outside.. cos.. home doest feels like home anymore.. homes shld be cosy, where most love can be found.. but for mi.. it quite turns out to be the opposite.. home is getting less comfortable.. it feels like a hotel more than a home.. all i do at home is sleep, bathe and sometimes eat.. the rest of the time.. im out.. out for? work.. its not as if i go out and have fun and play everyday u know.. sometimes i really hope my mom could be more understanding to mi.. yups.. i noe, im playful from like eversince im born.. as compared to my elder sis, she's always the better one in studies and behaviour.. and im the rebellious and un-thoughtful daughter.. " u dunnoe how to think, always so childish, u already very old liaos, cant u be like ur elder sis" this wat i hear eversince i step into pri sch.. no doubts that my parents are concern about my studies.. but IM DIFFERENT~! im not my elder sis, i cant be like her in any terms.. ESP IN TERMS OF STUDIES AND BEHAVIOUR.. i jus wan to be myself.. they know, all the stupid things i did was to get attention from them.. but, the attention they gave was not wat i want.. ALL I WANT IS JUS A LITTLE BIT MORE LOVE AND CONCERN FROM MY PARENTS~! AND STOP ALL THE BIAS-NESS~! waking up at this time, doing hmwk, it's becos im playful, didnt do my hmwk and yet went out to play ytd.. this is again.. from my mom.. IF its my sis who is now the one awake and doing work, this wont be wat she get.. she'll be getting " hvn finish ur work ah? ytd so late then slp now so early wake up, later u not enuff rest." see the difference? for now, im still sick.. hvn recover from cough, and recently gt back my flu again.. got fever last nite.. feeling better now.. BUT wat i gt from my mom was.. " Who ask u go k-box, now come back sick then u happy" .. I WAS SICK EVEN B4 I STEPPED OUT OF THE HOUSE~! haix.. i feel stressed.. and sometimes scared.. cos i know wats happening around mi.. i dun like to face the fActs that i know.. gt a nitemare last nite.. and i know its due to stress.. hais.. kkaes.. sorry for whining in my blog again.. and sorry to my dear for making u to worry bout mi.. SORRY TO EVERYTHING I'VE DONE~! 