wells..

okaes.. im here to update again. kkaes.. i know i'll been not updating regularly, even when its holidaes, im busy. and tired.

im really so tired of my life. always feel so stressed up and even sometimes feel lonely. mm.. emo agains. always needed someone to be there for me. and always there's someone out there whom i'll feel relax and stress free with. hais. but now there's so muc problems going on around me. FCUK. making me so pissed off.

Cheerobics is coming and im slacking away. im incharge of making the music. im not sure if i can do it. but i'll try my best, cos what i can do is actually very little. kkaes. now,no more projects for mi to chiong, but there's work for me to chiong. hais. so running out of money lars.

haiz. second time in my life i ever felt this way. its the second time that i wanted to be serious in a relationship. but its always so hard. its everytime parents who objects and make my life difficult. i hate it. i hate the way they turn my stress free time into stressful times. i wont give up so easy. i've been through it before, so this time im not going to give up and let go. i dun hate them, i know they care but i hope they can give me happiness, by accepting my choice. i dun care about what others say, cos it's not how i feel. hais. i dun wana think so much. its so stressful.
hais. crying doesnt helps, so i decided not to anymore.

I FEEL SO PISS LARS~! FCUKING SJ, so damn IRRITATING~! hais..i'm already in bad mood still call and call.. msg so much for wat. if u wan sth the go and persue it urself lars.. keep on bothering me for what. it's not my business lors. i'm tired lars!@#%%^

i feel like life is always giving me problems. hais. maybe its what i created. i dunnoe. i jus hope things will turn out better. cos im tired. i dun haf the energy to continue walking the road alone. my dad asked, " why cant u be like before? previously, letting go of relationship is so easy for u, but why not this time?" the reason is becos, HE IS DIFFERENT~!!!!! he's the second guy who can give me this kind of feeling. 1st guy, for those who know me wel will know its who. i dun wanna mention. i hate it. this kind of feeling is really rare, i dun wanna lose it. even if i have no choice but to lose thise feeling, i hope it's becos of either him or me. not becos we're being forced to.


ARGH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
FCUK YOU, STUPID BRAIN STUPID LIFE~!

I HATE EMO-NESS.
I HATE MYSELF.
I HATE YOU.

finally holiday~

woots.. finally, it's holiday.. hahas.. man, i wish this month wil not pass so fast.. COS I WANNA ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS~ lols. go back school is stress de lors. lols.

well.. so sorry for not updating regularly. cos i was like rushing projects all the way.. TIRING~! lols. anyway, i skipped practice ytd cos wanna rest aft the whole 3 weeks of chionging studio project.. mm.. and went back to HILLGROVE~

wahaha... i really miss hillgrove times..went back to hillgrove, and the feeling is SHIOK ah~! it's like all those frens who i haven met up with for quite some time are all back, and the teachers, i miss them, but didnt get to chat with them much lars, cos joanne nid to go help her mother at the stall.. but then when we reach there, her mother already start packing up lers.. i think we onli stayed there for like 15 mins? then we proceed to JEC for kbox..

mm.. supposingly there shld be anne, aud, beryl and mi ders.. but then aud that busy gal, got date le lors.. then ps mi and anne... beryl, i dunnoe her.. lols.. maybe she follow aud go lors..mm. then left with mi and anne, but, zhu gor called mi, say wanna come find us..lols.. so okaes lors, we go tgt. and sang~! DAMN HIGH lars.. aft zhu gor left early, replacing him was sheng jie, lols, i dunnoe how he come in wan lors. lols.

then we sang until 7 plus, went to wm and eat pasta mania, OMG, im so sick of pasta, lols. then aft that, went to find my godma and godpa, drank abit, then liyun came to find me for another drinking session. lols. with carol, and lay yong. ate abit of supper. mm. sheng jie came and join us for drinking too.

then today work lors.. tireds. later going to work on some stuffs. that's all.


im EMO ING~! SIAO SIAO GURLL~!