okaes.. im here to update again. kkaes.. i know i'll been not updating regularly, even when its holidaes, im busy. and tired.
im really so tired of my life. always feel so stressed up and even sometimes feel lonely. mm.. emo agains. always needed someone to be there for me. and always there's someone out there whom i'll feel relax and stress free with. hais. but now there's so muc problems going on around me. FCUK. making me so pissed off.
Cheerobics is coming and im slacking away. im incharge of making the music. im not sure if i can do it. but i'll try my best, cos what i can do is actually very little. kkaes. now,no more projects for mi to chiong, but there's work for me to chiong. hais. so running out of money lars.
haiz. second time in my life i ever felt this way. its the second time that i wanted to be serious in a relationship. but its always so hard. its everytime parents who objects and make my life difficult. i hate it. i hate the way they turn my stress free time into stressful times. i wont give up so easy. i've been through it before, so this time im not going to give up and let go. i dun hate them, i know they care but i hope they can give me happiness, by accepting my choice. i dun care about what others say, cos it's not how i feel. hais. i dun wana think so much. its so stressful.
hais. crying doesnt helps, so i decided not to anymore.
I FEEL SO PISS LARS~! FCUKING SJ, so damn IRRITATING~! hais..i'm already in bad mood still call and call.. msg so much for wat. if u wan sth the go and persue it urself lars.. keep on bothering me for what. it's not my business lors. i'm tired
lars!@#%%^
i feel like life is always giving me problems. hais. maybe its what i created. i dunnoe. i jus hope things will turn out better. cos im tired. i dun haf the energy to continue walking the road alone. my dad asked, " why cant u be like before? previously, letting go of relationship is so easy for u, but why not this time?" the reason is becos, HE IS DIFFERENT~!!!!! he's the second guy who can give me this kind of feeling. 1st guy, for those who know me wel will know its who. i dun wanna mention. i hate it. this kind of feeling is really rare, i dun wanna lose it. even if i have no choice but to lose thise feeling, i hope it's becos of either him or me. not becos we're being forced to. ARGH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~FCUK YOU, STUPID BRAIN STUPID LIFE~!I HATE EMO-NESS. I HATE MYSELF.I HATE YOU.