mm.. i dunnoe what to type. but i jus feel like typing and updating this blog.
life has been a bitch man, hell load of nonsense, work, studies.
in my 18 yrs of life, have i live the life i want to or am i jus following whatever others are doing? i been asking myself this question and there seems to be no ans to it.
cos currently, i am in neither. i am in the category of what others wants me to be like and what they want me to do. wth. this is not the life i want.
my fren told me i was a selfish person. To this, i dun deny. i am selfish. thinking of myself all the time. to me, I AM the most impt person in my life. i dun wanna depend on anyone, my family, my frens, and my love. I cannot afford to be dependent on any of them cos i've been through the consequense of being over reliant and trusting with them.
i dun like the feeling of being stabbed. i've been stabbed and betrayed too many times. really. i dunnoe who can i trust and who i cant. eversince that incident, i learnt to be independent. too independent that makes me a person who made everyone dislike me. lols. maybe.
maybe i have attitude problems, and many dislike me for it. but those who can accept the fact that im like this, i communicate with them perfectly well. i dun wanna make any changes.
I JUS WANNA BE MYSELF. THE HAPPY CHEERFUL SELF. A PERSON WHO DOES NOT EMO.WHO are my frens and who are my foe? i tired. damn tired. 